f-a-r-u-l

Fuhhh...

2010-10-04T22:34:00.000-07:00

OKAY...

I feel like i wanna write something, but i don't know what to write.

There are soooo many things i wanna write about but it's like everything wants to come out at the same time..

Plus, there are things that i wanted to say, but i have to differentiate which ones to say or shouldn't because, some things in my mind might just hurt other people.

So lets keep it quiet then... keep everything quiet and let it nurture until it blows.

After that... we'll see...

Things are not the same anymore. What i mean is, people change according to the situation.

When situation changes, people change again. Well hey, thats what we do anyways. Trying to adapt.

Hmm....

Don't know what im babling about.. but, its somewhere in me.

Im the EMO freak in disguise.. haha.

Theraphy/Solution - Buy myself something nice... I want a Ferrari.

Daa...

Happy..

2010-07-24T18:41:00.000-07:00

Im happy now, and it all started with her..

Chesty chest will somehow explode in time

2010-01-01T12:27:00.000-08:00

Older chests reveal themselves
Like a crack in a wall
Starting small, and grow in time
And we all seem to need the help
Of someone else
To mend that shelf
of too many books
Read me your favourite line

Papa went to other lands
And he found someone who understands
The ticking, and the western man's need to cry
He came back the other day, yeah you know
Some things in life may change
And some things
They stay the same

Like time, there's always time
On my mind
So pass me by, I'll be fine
Just give me time

Life..

2009-10-13T19:07:00.000-07:00

I was browsing around and found something that interests me.
Tatts with life quotes... but inspiring though..
here are some..

Quotes of life and Living

-I was throbbing; it shook the bed. I was more alive than I could bear.

-Live to the point of tears.

-We do not remember the days, we remember the moments. -Pavese

-I beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. do not search fo rthe answers, which could not be given you now, because you would not be able to live them. and the point is, to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer. -Rilke

-Nothing is worth more than this day. -Goethe

-The journey is the reward. -Tao saying

-Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground. -Rumi

-Before I almost used to think there was something wrong. Everybody else seemed to have the brakes on. A scene in a movie, a voice, a phrase was not for them volcanic. I never feel the brakes. I overflow." -Anais Nin

-Love the life you live, don't live the life you love. -"Chicago"

-La vita e bella; la vita e amore. -- Life is beautiful; life is love. -"Life is Beautiful"

-Living well is the best revenge.

-Just remember, the sweet is never as sweet without the sour. And I know sour, which allows me to appreciate the sweet. -"Vanilla Sky"

-Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around. -"Vanilla Sky"

-He who has a why to live can bear almost any how. -Friedrich Nietzsche

-He who has nothing to die for has nothing to live for. -Moroccan Proverb

-Unbeing dead isn't being alive. -e.e. cummings

Im Backkk!!

2009-08-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

Its been months since i wrote my post.. lemme refresh, since May i think..
yeahh,..

Lots and lots of things have been going on since then. yeapp. too many to tell.
But, im gonna break it down in this post. Okayy,..

First things first, i got my results last June and damn, i failed my Technical studies, my Design, and also my Dissertation (report on environmental architecture). But i passed my Professional Studies tho where many people in my class find it hard to pass. Guess im lucky.
So, yeah, Im actually in the midst of doing my dissertation now but i got distracted. haha.

Back to the story, I went back to Malaysia in July for my summer break and been catchin up with lots of friends back home. Oh, and i also met my best friend Faliq's wife Farah who came back to Malaysia for good. I kinda worked for my dad in his office at the same time coz, well, u know my dad, tak boleh tengok orang bangun lambat.. haha.
I went to Krabi in Thailand and had funnn in the sun for 4 days... yeehaa!.. i went with some other friends which is, zaida, reza, imran, serina, hazwan, aween, salmi, romi and also my sayang... we went island hopping where we went to Railey beach, Phi Phi lay, Phi Phi Don, but we didnt get a chance to visit Maya bay where they filmed 'The Beach' movie because the current was too strong. Its nearly the monsoon anyways in august. Nevetheless, we still had fun. The best part was eating local Thai Food. Uuuu. it gets me craving for it just to think of it. damn... puasa ni.. haha.
1 thing i truly not enjoy is that i only had 1 chance to play golf back home. darn... well, i got no 'kaki' to play anyways. Faliq was busy working and he went to the US to pick up Farah to bring home, Aizmin was busy as well with his BINI, Haziq was also busy workin, and My dad.... dont ask.
Oh, i went to Malacca for product testing for my dad's company. it was awesome. but i couldn't really fire one coz the ammunition itself costs 400 ringgit a piece. damn. Its a sniper rifle that can pierce thru tanks and heavy armors. damn cool.

Now im back in London and i'll be stayin here till i don't know when coz, my family is coming here for raya, my sayang is coming in december, and i think this year i will be a bit more busier coz this is my final year...if i pass. haha.
hmm, i hate fasting in London. we fast for 16 hours mann... imsak at 4am and break-fast at 8pm.
quite a longggg time. and plus i have to do my work which makes it more difficult... oh well.
its okay, i'll manage..

AAAAaaaanyways, ive gotta get back to work now. Dissertation submission on monday, Technical studies and Design presentation on Tuesday. no time to waste..
Till then, Selamat Berpuasa everyone, and in case i dont see ya, Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin..

:)

-FZ-

Desicions decisions...

2009-05-26T20:29:00.000-07:00

I made a decision, despite all the things that we go thru
I’m going to take more time with you, and be a friend indeed
I made a decision, that everything will be alright
Going to stay strong and keep it tight, I’ll be there indeed

Let me talk to you, when it feels like the sun ain’t shining bright enough
It’s like the devil’s trying to work to give ????
And though I’m blessed, I still gotta handle of things I go through
It’s good to have a friend, with another perspective to show you
Someone you know that knows you, and gives you motivation
Someone that you can go to, and vent your frustration
We always talk about our peeps, how we be everywhere
When you need ‘em the most, are they really ever there?
See , every thing be all good when we be havin’ fun
The difference is really needing a friend than having one
It’s good when your peoples are there to help your problems
And help you smile about it while finding a way to solve it
Look at hear, let me keep it at 100 and let me tell ya
How you hold me down is something I genuinely value
I got a clearer view, and being that you’re always here for me I’ll be here for you

Well, how you been baby? But I’m sayin’
Even though we probably link up every now and then
With minimal convo, look it’s real good to see you friend
Something that we allow that I don’t even have to mention
Is whether or not you got me, that’s something that I never question
Sometimes I feel that the people that I love don’t appreciate me
And some hate to see the shit I’ve been going through lately
See you was here, when it started to haywire
You’re still here, walkin with me going thru the fire
And I really love you for it, I know you all relate too
On everything that I believe and I appreciate it you
And just for that, it don’t matter you can put that on my name
The way you rep me, let me be there just for you the same
Sometimes the pressure and the pain, it be wearin’ me out
But I thank you for just bein’ there and for hearin’ me out
I got a clearer view, I thank God that you’re here for me and I’m here for you

I, look in your eye, and I see the pain in it
Life’s a game, maybe the game did it
I know I changed, they say the fame did it
Life’s changed, maybe the game did it
Two friends, now in two different places
And the mister catchin’ planes, and you catching cases
Friendship, we never based it on position
No matter the game, we both shared the same vision
Decisions to split us in the place that life seemed to hit us
I would come to town and never get up, with you
Around then, things weren’t so simple
I had my own issues that I was trying to get through
Outside chatter, messing with our mental
On the chase of ???? trust, you can’t forget to
It’s the real friends, that you’ve got to tend to
No matter how far, just know that I’m with you

I made a decision, despite all the things that we go thru
I’m going to take more time with you, and be a friend indeed
I made a decision, that everything will be alright
Going to stay strong and keep it tight, I’ll be there indeed

I made a decision..

-F.Z.-

KL.

2009-05-12T12:33:00.000-07:00

KL City, where them dimes are pretty
Some sides of town nice others parts is gritty

My hometown ain’t hard to spell
That’s K-U-A-L-A-L-U-M
P-U-R yes Mam you can jam
To this track when you stuck in the jam
No matter whether you’s in a Kancil or Perdana Sedan man
Take a right down Sultan Ismail
Stopped at the light this girlie she looked at me smiling
Wind down the window said what up Ma
She said I seen you somewhere now, up in the club
Was it Zouk or Bliss or Savanh
Pass me your digits baby you look so fine
I’ll call you tomorrow maybe and then we could have lunch
Maybe be dinner then hit town and have some fun in KL

KL, KL big city of dreams
And everything in KL ain’t always what it seems
KL, KL, I represent it well
I get down for my town, KL

K.L, K.L big city of dreams
And everybody on the hustle every second for cream
Heaven for fiends of wealth but my spiritual hideout
Club hopping's habitual causin’ ritual night outs
The coolest city yeah despite the humidity
Pretty city smiles the people speak with humility
Beautiful women comin’ in different skin tones
Flip phones with traditional Melayu ring tones
K.L’s the light city, the light city
The you and family would guarantee to like city
Witty, people with great hearts, buildings of great art
The food complete that, now tell me how you beat that
When I say K.L, you say city
K.L city, K.L city
Huh, you Rocafella, yo I rock a crowd
Kuala Lumpur Malaysia, say it loud and proud, now c’mon

Before, ya’ll didn’t have a clue now you’re on the tv news
KLCC dudes breaking girls looking real nice
Let me take you to Bukit Bintang for the best chicken rice
Have the same dish twice then bounce to Sg. Wang
This oriental looking girl looking like she Suzie Wong
Is that her name I could be wrong tell me where I’ve seen her
Show at Bukit Jalil or Stadium Merdeka
Asked to ride with me cruise with Joe Casanova
Favourite view of town is from the Tun Razak flyover
See the twin towers and the vision of the man
2020....

I Miss home...

F-O-R-G-I-V-E-N-E-S-S

2009-04-30T17:38:00.000-07:00

Once again I write to you
The sun is shining the sky is blue
And all I do is sit and think.....
Only about you without a blink

The days pass and the nights yearn
From all that has happened I wish I could learn
That life isn't always what you desire
It leaves you lost in flames of fire

You see your day and see it through
Knowing what I'm writing is all so true
You ignore the meaning of all of this
Thinking that I’m being childish

I've tried to ignore I've tried to forget
But all I see is the first time we met
I don't know why this happened to me
Maybe it's a dream, pinch me and see

All I request is a closing chapter
Meet me for 5 don't let me wonder
All I want is for you to reflect on
Whether I lie and this is for fun

Hopefully you'll find the answer is no
That this for me isn't a show
Don't forget the moments we had
The day you left I was sad ..

~Relationships are so precious and so rare, that sometimes we take it for granted. Sometimes we do despair. Our fault is just being human, we make mistakes everywhere.So everyone, do not lose the gift, which is so precious and so rare.~

THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO SAY OUT LOUD!!!

2009-04-28T08:26:00.000-07:00

ई स्तिल्ल् लोवे यो।

Alrite

2009-03-28T06:30:00.000-07:00

Alrite now..
Just 1 more week till easter break. But before that,
a presentation of Sustainability and Design, on tuesday and Crit
on thursday.
Well, lets see my schedule for this week shall we?..
okay u have to turn your head a bit to see it.. heh heh..
i dont know how to rotate it here. it was alright in the file tho...
soo, yeapp... thats it!
more to come in the month of APRIL!

take care everyone!
cheers!

Hmm... Tired.

2009-03-05T17:36:00.000-08:00

My back aches and my eyes are sore.
I kept on yawning in the midst of the night.
I have so much work to do.
I tried to be awake as long as possible,
so that i can free up some time when my dad arrives
in London. I've gotta pick him up this Sunday morning
at 5 in the a.m. So, i gotta leave around 3. Its a 2 hour
drive from East Ham to Heathrow. Yeah, its far.
I have to finish my work by wednesday next week
coz there will be a presentation on Thursday.
Hmm... another busy week ahead.
Cant wait for the holidays....

Thinking Of You

2009-03-02T21:17:00.001-08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

DADDY, Im in LOVE with HER...

2009-02-20T17:06:00.000-08:00

Im soo in love with her.

I really adore her.

I wanna take care of her.

Shes makes me proud.

She makes me smile every single day.

Ill bring her everywhere i go.

I'll take her wherever she wants to go,

I dont mind spending my time with her.

I dont mind spending my money for her.

Come to think about money,.... Shit, shes too expensive......

Daddy.... I WANT HER really BAD!...

MEN AND WOMEN'S REMOTE!

2009-02-20T16:37:00.000-08:00

Remote for Men

OH... WOMAN, lets fish THEM..

2009-02-20T16:20:00.000-08:00

Jika Wanita diumpamakan sebagai Ikan, kategori ikan apakah yang jadi favorite anda?

IKAN SALMON
Bentuknya OK, indah, dagingnya pink muda dan enak dimakan.
Tapi sayangnya mahal, soalnya masih boleh diimport. Sesuai… ada nilai, ada kualiti….
INI WANITA BERKERJAYA.....

IKAN ARWANA
Kalo yang ini kalau di aquarium memperlihatkan kesombongan dan keangkuhan kerana tau tubuhnya indah, langkahnya lemah gemalai dan memancing mata.. nakal melihatnya di manapun dia bergaya.....
So pasti harganya mahal kalau ingin memilikinya....
INI PERAGAWATI, CELEBRITY or keatas........

IKAN MAS KOKI
ini jenis ikan lumayan mahal, indah bentuknya, warnanya, dan lenggak- lenggoknya.
Sayangnya hanya boleh dilihat, dikagumi, tak boleh dimakan, kerana termasuk kategori ikan hiasan.....
INI BINI ORANG........

IKAN BANDARAYA
Jenis ini murah dan selalu menempel di kaca aquarium.
Kalo sudah menempel, susah sgt nk lepaskannya.... mcm gam...
INI AWEK ALIM, ANAK USTAz nii.......

IKAN KELI
Kalo yang ini harganya murah, boleh dimakan dimana saja.
Banyak dijual di tepi jalan, harus hati-hati
INI AWEK TEPI JALAN........

IKAN BILIS
Bentuk dan rasanya gitu- gituuu... saja.
Selalu sedap dimakan kalau tidak ada sayur atau tidak ada lauk yang lain....
INI BINI SENDIRI....

haha...
enjoy..

LIFE..

2009-02-15T19:20:00.000-08:00

Everyday..

I’m confused.

Confused with everything that’s been happening.

It’s been very tough.

I’m glad I’m strong and battling.

I’d never though I’d have feelings like this,

So lost and confused living life as a dream.

Comparing it to reality,

i am nothing.

So tired of having nothing and unable to do what i want the most.

I feel as if i am being held back in some trap.

In other words trapped behind a shattered mirror,

imaging so many things in my head that dont make sense.

More and more i want freedom so bad that i am being blinded from reality.

osing focus to things each day...

Oh GOD help me..

As i can only plan,

YOU'RE the one who makes it happen..

AMIN...

Uhh..

2009-02-08T19:07:00.000-08:00

5 hours to go....

my back hurts..

im still stuck...

needs an inspirational booster...

needs ideas...

needs creativity....

2009-02-06T20:50:00.000-08:00

1.What have you've been doing recently?
Going to school

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Yes, sometimes when it hanged.

3.What happened at 10am today?
I was at starbucks having coffee

4.When did you last cry?
Erm.. Ermm.. can't tell that.

5.Believe in fate/destiny?
Duh..

6.What do you want in your life now?
Everything that i desire

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
Put up the hood

8.What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
duh.. sleep

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
Im just wearing my undies.

10.What's the nicest things in your inbox?
Idk..

11.Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
Idk, but i dont really think so..

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
nope

13.What was the last movie you caught?

YES man

14.What are you proud of?
My dad.

15.What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
Well, can't say that..

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
I can't recall, i sang soo many songs..

17.Do you have any nicknames?
Farul, Fakrul, Farell, Fak, Radzi, .. thats all i can remember now..

18.What does the newest text say?

'Shot tersend' from Aza

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
2 am

20.Are you currently happy?

Idk..

21.Who gives you the best advise?
myself

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
i've never tried doing that before..

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night
my dad..

24.Is something bugging you know
yeap.. things..

25.Who was the last person to make you laugh?
anthony.

IF...

2009-01-30T09:12:00.000-08:00

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

LOVE PERHAPS?

2009-01-24T19:31:00.000-08:00

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection. LOVE can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction.This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person.

I think i'm in it.... again...

AHAH!

2009-01-19T21:31:00.000-08:00

bla bla bla.. EMO EMO..... bla bla bla...emo emo BLA..
bla EMO bla bla.............ShItTos!!

WHY WHY WHY......

2009-01-15T02:02:00.000-08:00

I need to do work.
Presentation is at 2. Its 10 am now. and i haven't printed out a single sheet yet.
I can't concentrate!. Browsed online and saw a couple of things that made me wonder.
Yeah, I like wondering, imagining and apparently make my own assumptions.
Wouldn't it be easier if things weren't like a puzzle? Coz, by not wasting time trying to search for an answer, u'll save time on the next step u take, or for anybody else to take. In the real world, decisions has to be made. And fastt. If not, you'll just miss the opportunity. Time is precious...

Im still starring in front of my mac. blanked. looking at this post. while im writing it..
I shouldn't waste my time..... If not, i'm gonna be like YOU!

-peace-

New Start...

2009-01-13T10:35:00.000-08:00

Heyyy everyone.

I'm back again. it's been quite a while since i posted part of my life here.
Anyways......

Many events happened while i was out living my life. For instance, Spain with family, Xmas, New Year, My mom's birthday, New term, Term Holidays and.... bla bla bla..

First things first, as you can see, got a haircut back in Malaysia. haha. yeaahh...
I went back for a week. It was a spontaneous plan. I decided to go back when i was having dinner with my family when my family was here in London. I spoke to my dad and he just said yes. But i wasn't too sure at first because im just afraid that class would just start. So, after dinner, went to see my Uni friend and had a chat of when the new term is gonna start. Turned out, i still have 1 more week of break.. haha.

So, the next day, i went to the airport to send my parents off back to Malaysia and bought a ticket for the next day. And there i went.. Just brought myself a hand carry bag and my laptop bag home.. woww.. haha. The customs officer must have said, u came back from London and all u brought is just this??.. aaa, nothing for us to check?.. haha.

I touched down in Malaysia at about 5.30 pm on Sunday and supposedly my dad is gonna fetch me from KL Central station. Apparently, my phone batt wass too low that it switched off and i couldn't contact him. When i arrived at KL Central there was nobody to fetch me so i was thinkin of just taking the cab back. So, before i went for the cab, i decided to have some starbucks and oh i saw a power plug there and i ws thinkin, maybe i should have my phone charged and call somebody up. haha...
So, i ordered my iced caramel 'macchi chitto' haha, and just chill there while my phone was charged. Chilled there for half an hour or more..

I left starbucks and called haziq. He didn't believe me that i was in KL, coz i was using my UK number and he thought i was joking, plus, he was busy dating anyways.. haha..
well, i called Azhar up and luckily he believed me, and he came to pick me up. I called my dad and told him im there already and he scolded me why didn't i call him when i arrived. I told him my situation and he was okay..

I arrived home and was surprised that my aunt and uncle was there... haha..
I had dinner and chilled at home for a while and then went out straight to meet Adreanna.

Who's Adreanna???.... haha.. shhhh..
Well, i think by now, everybody must have heard about it and wondering who... nyeh heh he..
Well,.. how i knew Adreanna was amazingly funny.
Last summer back in KL, i used to go lepak-ing with my friends at the usual places that we lepak.
The thing is, everytime Im at the place, i always see her. It became frequent..
One day, i went to BOSS, KLCC with my dad to shop for new shirts for work. I just started working with my dad at that time. so, i picked 2 shirts and went to pay for it at the counter.
As i was waiting, suddenly, this girl who looks familiar came out from the store room and stand at the counter.. It was her!.. the mystery girl.. woohoo... I 'tegur-ed' her and said, heyy, i always see you at Suzi's corner.. she just laughed and said okayy...
so, that was it..

After that, i keep seeing her frequently and for a period, i thought she was stalking me. haha.
well, since i knew her now, she said the same thing.. which was funny..
i saw her like 2-3 times a week and apparently at different places.. dang!
stalkerr!!.. haha..

I got a girlfriend in July and i didn't see her since. Its like she just dissappeared!.
Well, maybe my eyes only see what my eyes want to see.. My love at that time of course..
I only love one at a time.. no juggling... sorreyh..

Anyhooos, one day, i was messaging my family friend Aween, whos also in UK on facebook just wondering what she's doin, but she didn't reply. So, i decided to lookup on her profile. There were some new pictures uploaded and i want to see them.

1 particular picture shows a familiar face. hmm, and i was like OMG, is it her???... the girl from HUGO BOSS??...
I called up Aween straight and luckily she picked up and told her about it .. and it IS HER!
haha.. I added her up on fb and she was online at that time. She approved, and she messaged me up on fb. haha.. apparently she is one of Aween's besties..
Its soo weirdd...

So, yeahh.. thats how i knew her...

back to the story mory,....

so, yeah,... me, Azhar and Haziq chilled at Suzi's and waited for Adreanna. coz she had dinner with her friends. She too was shocked to hear that i'm back. This time, we met and talked face to face. haha.
First impression, shittt, shes taller than me! dangg.. but i didn't really care... anything goes..

Okay, enought bout her,... so yeah, other than Adreanna, i went back to eat and boy i really ate like a pig!.. haha.. uh oh,.. my last day in Malaysia, i played golf with Faliq and Haziq. Aizmin was at Singapore with Ying, Yan and another dude.. I mean, Aizmin... come on.. Yan?. wtf??
Its not often your friend came back from London to play golf with you, innit?... camnila kawan..
but hell,.. i suck at golf this time.. haha Faliq and Haziq really 'tapau-ed' me. Yeah,.. ive got my excuse.. havent even touched the sticks for like five month!.. wateva ya'll... haha

soo, yeapp.... thats it, my flight back to UK was on Saturday morning at 10 am.
I had a great time back home and wished that school never starts.. hohho..

Starting monday, on the 12th of January, i have strategy week and it will end this friday.
After that, i think its gonna be my postphoned presentation in December. plus, Im takin another module this term. It is actually research on Sustainability in Design. Well, techniquely, its my thesis for this term.
Im going for a visit to Germany with my classmates somewhere in February. Its in Damshtatd.. im not sure whether the spelling is correct or not,.. but yeah.. it'll be fun. Oh ya,.. i dont think im gonna have easter break coz, the timetable didn't show any, but theres 1 week break for spring break and its in April. 2 more month after that, Its summer again...WEEEHOOOO!!!..
my cuti starts on the 26th of June. but im not gonna go back straight away, i might just stay there for a week or 2. Aza said shes comin down here, but she's not sure yet. But its okay, whether she come or not, i'll be here maybe till the middle of July..

I think that's it for now,.. will be updating some more lator lator.. haha
till then.....

in case i don't see ya, Good Morning, Good Evening, and Good Night.

INDY

2009-01-09T03:55:00.000-08:00

I came across this word today,..
IN DENIAL .
-someone who likes something/someone, but pretending not to like it/them.

i think i'm one of them. DAMN!
i don't know how to handle this..

Life

2008-12-23T18:56:00.000-08:00

LIFE,
Is full of surprises.
We might not expect whats gonna happen.
It came the least expected we want it.

Sometimes its good,
sometimes it's bad.
We only cherish the good things,
but we never learn from the bad things.
The next step for us is just to go ahead.
That's why it is called as the next step.
Nobody walks backwards.
If there is, one will fall.

After all, life is just a one way road.
No U turns and no corners.
But there are bends and junctions.
That will make it more interesting,
and we can only pick one.
Choose it wisely,
because a road always comes to a destination.
It is just a matter of hard or easy and short or long.
choose the best...

Just thinking...

2008-12-14T23:44:00.000-08:00

I don't know what to do......

Old things go, New things come...

2008-12-07T15:50:00.000-08:00

Honestly what will become of me ?
I don't like reality
it's way too clear to me,
but really, life is daily
we are what we don't see.
missed everything day dreaming..

Why do all good things come to an end?

Travelling, I only stop at exits
wondering if I'll stay and live this way, I'll stress less.
I want to pull away when the dream dies
the pain sets in and I don't cry.
I only feel gravity and I wonder why?...

The sun was wondering if it should
stay away for a day,
Til the feeling went away...

But the sun still came and gave a brand new day,
and met me with the mystery people the other day,
One of them, a girl, came up to me and said,
Wanna have a walk?..

I stood there and said, are you sure about that?
she just smiled and said,
yeah, it'll be nice.

So i went with her,
and started travelling again...

cheers..

LAMANYEE...

2008-12-02T14:46:00.001-08:00

WELL, things doesn't go as you really expected it rite?..
As for me, it happened because of my car.
I bought a car 3 weeks ago but i still haven't been able to get hold of it yet.
The thing is, ermm, well okay, lemme tell from the start.
My dad appointed to uncle Ashok (his car dealer friend from his early days in London) to look for a car for me beacause
he's a car dealer and it is supposed to be easier to get the car and i
dont really have to look around and search for it.
It took uncle Ashok 2-3 weeks to find a suitable car and in perfect
condition. Well, car searching really does take a long time. And plus,
we do want a good bargain rite?.
So, yeah, he got the car already. After that, it needs to be inspected to get the MOT certificate and to show that it is in good condition for British roads.
It took uncle Ashok about a week to do that.
After that, uncle Ashok asked me to buy the insurance online and he
also gave me his contact from the insurance company. Turns out, my insurance policy cost me 7000 quids a year!. i'm like, thats like nearly quarter of the car price!
So, we've decided to consider a backup plan.. haha.
The next best thing to do is, Register the car to someone else and register me
as a second driver in the insurance policy. The insurance policy here is a bit
strict about the age criteria, where you are still considered as a young driver
if youre under 25. They are also strict on where you park your car, for instance,
in the garage, on the street, on a private car park, or on the driveway.
Back to the story, so, Ive decided to register the car under Uncle
Tajri's (my dad's defence attache friend who is posted in London) name.
Well, techniquely, it is uncle Tajri's idea to register it on his name.. haha..
coz he consulted me on how to get the car settled anyways.
So, yeah, he will get the car insurance cheap coz, he had 2 cars with the
same company, and the third car would be slightly cheaper. The registration
address is put on his house add, so that the insurance company will assume its
gonna be parked on his driveway.. heheh.
As for now, everything is almost done. Its just that, i need to get the car
instralled with a GPS security tracking device as it is a criteria from the
insurance company to get it insured.
Uncle Ashok said that i would be getting my car by today. YEEHAA!!...
So i texted him in the morning and asked him when can i get it. I WAS SOO EXCITED!
BUTT!!! he turned me down, as he booked the car to be fitted with the
tracking device on thursday. I thought he said that he's gonna do it
yesterday! dangg..
So, for now, i'll just wait and see then. hopefully i'll get it by this week,
coz it has already been 3 weeks since he bought it and i'm actually not that
excited anymore. PLUSS, i have a final critique next week, so i can't really
go and fool around with the car when i get it.
"if " i get it laaa... u know wut i mean.. LAMA GILAA!!

2008-11-25T22:00:00.000-08:00

Thinking....

2008-11-25T18:13:00.000-08:00

I wasn't feeling well today. I stayed in until 5pm when i had to go to class coz i can't afford to miss any class. Well, i havn't missed any class yet as far as im concern..
Its just that, im keeping the record of not missing any class at all.

Anyways, i've been thinking...

about life, coz just now aunty asked me, like "bila nak kawin?"..
i'm like what?.. well, i don't know.. not the time yet. Ntah ntah tak kawin kot!
haha...
Its been a while since somebody asked me that question. haha. Plus, my mum asked me yesterday, how's your girlfriend?.. Im like what?(again) haha.. and i finally confessed to my mum that i don't have any.'i dont have any girlfriends la mum, dah lama dah'. So my mum cakap, takpela, sabarla, nanti ada la....
The thing is, even if i do, im actually not ready to marry anyone yet. I have 1 and a half years to go for my Professional Diploma, 1 year for my masters, and another year for my Mba.
Its not that im soo into studying that much, its just that, i will feel secured if i have those academic qualities when applying for a job.
I know that i already have a secured position in my dad's company, but i need to explore more coz the world has a lot to offer rather than just finishing this 2 years and just continue working with my dad. I wanna gain new experience in a new environment. London is a start, maybe for my masters, i might go somewhere else.
If not, why should i study some more when the fact that i'll just gonna work for my dad. Am i rite?

Its okay, my dad supports on what i'm doing, and he didn't mind. He knows that, his childrens are lucky enough to have a proper education because he didn't have any when he was young. And as long as he can afford to give us a proper education, he supports it.

When my dad was in my age, he got an offer to go to Uni, but the thing is, his parents cant afford it. he said, "dulu atok awak takde duit nak hantar ayah pegi sambung blajar. kat Itm je pun".

My dad only has an STPM certificate, and yet, he succeeded in life. If my dad can do it, why can't i?.. I have more qualifications than him.
Anyways, my dad said that, u just gain experience and know what life means while you're there. That is the most important thing. This is because, even though orang blajar tinggi mana pun, it doesn't mean that they can succeed in life.But, of course you have to gain knowledge too. It is important as well. Its gonna look good on your resume' if you wanna gain some work experience. Thats what my dad said.

So, i hope i can do it till the end. Maybe after Mba, I'll work for 2 years in some country, or i can just go home and gain experience in my country..
Come to think about it, lets see... now i'm 24. By the time i finished studying, i'll be 28. Another 2 years of working experience, i'll be 30.
SHIT!.. bila nak kawin!.. hahaha
Well, we'll see how it goes.

AAAnnyywayysss...
I need to stop blabbering now.

These are just plans for my life..
It might change..
"We can just plan, but Allah will determine whether it will happen or not"..
InsyaAllah...

i think..

2008-11-23T16:01:00.000-08:00

I THINK I ENJOY TALKING TO YOU..
BUT WHO?.......?

NEW GUY IN TOWN!

2008-11-21T19:26:00.000-08:00

I was exploring the new shopping centre which just opened a few weeks ago
and i saw this!.. THE NEW BMW 7 SERIES!..
my OPINION? looks just like the 5 series.. hmm...
i'm guessing, have they kinda run out of IDEA??

SELIMUT HATI

2008-11-21T09:29:00.000-08:00

aku..
kan menjadi malam-malammu..
kan menjadi mimpi-mimpimu..
yang beku...

aku...
kan menjadi bintang-bintangmu...
kan selalu menyinarimu..
dan menghapus rasa rindumu..
yang pilu...

aku bisa untuk menjadi..
apa yang kau minta..
untuk menjadi apa yang kau impikan..
tapi ku tak bisa menjadi dirinya...

aku...
kan menjadi embun pagimu..
yang kan menyejukkan jiwamu..
dan kan membasuh hatimu..
yang layu..

aku bisa untuk menjadi..
apa yang kau minta..
untuk menjadi apa yang kau impikan..
tapi ku tak bisa menjadi dirinya...

tinggalkan sejenak lalumu...
beri sedikit waktu..
kepadaku...
untuk meyakinkanmu...

This song only reminds me of somebody,
AIZMIN BLACK!
haha,.. it has become your trademark innit?
aku dengar lagu ni je, aku ingat kau!
shitttos moralles!

OH NO!

2008-11-20T11:53:00.000-08:00

IM FAT!, I mean, i gained weight.

My friend whom i didn't meet for a couple of weeks met me today near the cafe,

and the first thing that came out his mouth was, hey, u gained weight! while doing an expression

with his hand pinching his cheeks.

I'm like "what?.... (not that shocked), oh okay. yeah, i guess.." (with the wtf! face)

I mean, im like too busy to workout nowadays. I hardly jog. The only time that im free is at night and its like 10-ish. I woke up in the morning, and went straight to class. After class, its already dark. I mean, it gets dark around 4 here, but i usually stay at the library until 6 or 7 to do work coz i know im not gonna do work in my room. My pc is gonna distract me from doing my work.

Anyways, back to the story, yeah. I like to jog at night, but its too dangerous to jog in my area at night. I used to wake up early for a jog when i just came here, but theres no time now. I even hardly get enough sleep. My coursework keeps me 'schpun'kenly' busy every day. haha...

OW ya, i do workout on weekends. I played futsal, but its just on the weekends.

Anyways again, im not keeping the busy-ness as a reason for me not to jog. Im gonna try and jog again and i have to diet!!! yeah DIET!....shaite!.. Even the gym is not acceptable. The gym is outdoor!. Who the hell wants to workout in the cold weather?.. meh sini kepala designer tu, kasi SEKEH sikit!

Allrite then,.. i need to continue doing my work now..

tata..titi...tutu....tuuuuttt....tuuttt.....

PENAT

2008-11-16T21:08:00.000-08:00

Im doing my work now,
haven't finished yet. My laptop actually crashed and i had to restore it.
Im tired. It's 5.00 a.m.. I need sleep. I hate this course.
I'm still recovering from my back ache 2 days ago and now this.
F**K!. Why did i sign up for this...

I have no idea of whatsoever to present tomorrow...
FED UP!.. Im sick and tired of this. I wish Im at home now..
I need to hold on and bare with it. I made the decision...
I miss everyone...

Okay, now Im talkin crap!
gonna continue my work now...

LONG DAY...

2008-11-14T20:10:00.000-08:00

Today,.. was a very long day,.. i am so tired now.. well, me and my group are just preparing for the things that were gonna present on Monday, which is the Crit day.
I woke up at 10, and went to A.V.A to meet my friends to do the model for our presentation.
Apparently, the workshop was closed because the technician in-charge of the workshop was ill.
We went to the school admin office and asked the staff if there are any replacements for the technician, but there was no one around. So, me, Tom, Mehrdad, Chang decided to go to Chang's apartment to do our model. So, we went to Cyprus station DLR, took the train to Canning Town, and changed to Jubilee line to Canary wharf. From Canary Wharf, we walked a bit to Heron Quays, and took the DLR there to Mudchute station which is quite near to Chang's apartment.
And so we worked from morning until 12 midnight. Went back after that, and joined some friends at Sheperds Hall, where apparently the Teh Tarik Society was having a steamboat dinner. There were just Nat, Tasha, Kevin, Zikri, and Kevin there left just waiting for me. Others went back coz the dinner actually started at about 8 oclock.
So, i stayed there and ate while watching others playing cards. After that, me, Zik, and Kevin cleaned up the place because, Goh, the host had already crashed on the bed coz he was too tired. Natalia and Tasha also went back when i was still eating coz they live quite far and had to take the bus home.
And now, i'm here in front of the pc writing a blog at 4.34 a.m. coz, i can't sleep. maybe im just too tired.. i dunno. Im drinking coffee now, but i know that coffee will never keep me awake. Orange juice does!. haha.
Anyways,.. i should continue to try and sleep now, i think...

till then,
be healthy, dont be like me.. ;)

'IF'

2008-11-13T19:24:00.000-08:00

"If", said the wise man, "the sea was vanilla, might the owl and the pussycat have changed their minds and sat instead on caramel coated sands with waves topped with cream... life would be simple, rich and fulfilled. Shall we go there one day?".

A note dedicated to everyone who has hard times living their lives...
I envy them, because, even though they are having difficulties to carry on their life,
They still make it.

Suffering and joy teach us, if we allow them, how to make the leap of empathy, which transports us into the soul and heart of another person. in those transparent moments we know other people's joys and sorrows, and we care about their concerns as if they were our own. -FRITZ WILLIAMS

2008-11-13T10:28:00.000-08:00

MASQUERADE

2008-11-12T18:38:00.000-08:00

Malaysian Society Oxford organized an event called ESPIONAGE.
It was awesome. Had fun.

HOOYEAHHH!!!!

2008-11-09T17:38:00.000-08:00

New week. new tasks..
Ive gotta stay focused now. Im keeping my mind off from my personal problems and stuff. So, i think i'm over it. Im more relaxed now.
Well see...! haha..
Anyways, I went to Nottingham Malaysian games last weekend. It was fun!
We hired 2 cars and there was about 12 of us. The trip there took us about three to four hours to reach. so, we decided to go a day early which was on Friday. So, we gerak around 7 pm and arrived in Nottingham around 10. and we checked in a budget hotel for backpackers. haha. It was fun. macam dalam asrama. haha. After checking in, went out for light supper and we walked around Nottingham town.
The next day, we woke up around 7 coz the boys are playing futsal and we have to go there to register around 8. So, we went there and watched them play. Ow ya, I met Hakeem and Aidah there, and met some new friends.
After the match, We went to the Portland Building which, is the gathering place for all of the Malaysian students and had lunch. There were soo many kinds of food... Ada laksa, ada mee mamak, ada nasi lemak, ada satay.. waaa..
I ate like a HORSE!.. haha.. sebab didnt eat since morning.
After lunch, we chilled there for a while, meet some Malaysians, and then went straight home. We arrived a bit late, coz we sesat a bit and we dont have a GPS with us.. haha. so, arrived in London about 10, and i tapau-ed some fried chickens for dinner.
Sooo,.. yeah, its been a great weekend and was a good experience for me to go to Nottingham.
Anyways, i have to go now. I have tonnes of work to do. I actually have to finish 2 masterplans, and 1 essay for the submission on the 17th. But, its a group work thingy and my group mates, Tom, Mehrdad, and Chang are actually covering some more plans for me coz I told them that im going away on the weekend. They didnt mind, so, it was ok..

Okay then,... will write some more later...
now.....WORK FARUL, WORK!!...

ChEeRiOSsssS!

YO BLAAD!

2008-11-06T18:07:00.000-08:00

Hey evry 1,.. tanks fo readin me blog.

just tought of sayin dat.. coz i no, so manni pepole are readin dis shitty blog of mine.

well, fo now,...
me just want to say dat i is missin me someone...
dint get to tawlk to er fo sumtime alreddy..
and, i just want to say srry fo the shits dat ive done to er..
and hopefully, dat she fowgive me..
dats all fo now...

ave a good day..

LAPAR..

2008-11-03T13:35:00.000-08:00

Im so hungry!!!.... its 9.36 p.m. London time.
I haven't eaten a single meal yet today other than just a Kit Kat bar and gallons of latte.
Man!.. I seriously need to live healthily. I do jog, but yeah, no time to have breakfast.
I don't have classes that much. But I do projects every day. My classes are just on tuesdays, and thursdays. But, work have to be done every single day. 9-5. and sumtimes 9-7...
So now... Im gonna cook. yeah... have to. Its expensive to buy..
dang... I miss Malaysia.. NOW I'M REALLY FEELIN IT!! SHITTOS MORALLES!!

Quantum Of Solace

2008-10-29T18:14:00.000-07:00

"If you can find your Quantum of Solace, it means you've figured out what life's all about".

"It's the moment in a relationship if you don't have it, it's over."- Daniel Craig

Sometimes..

2008-10-28T23:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,
People just never give a damn about you.
Don't even care what you think.
They only think whats best for them, without consulting it with you,
where, they tend to forget, that every judgment or decision they make
is actually affecting you. Coz sadly, you're kinda in the picture as well!
First, they give hope, then, poof!!.. its gone!
What were they thinking? 'Genie in a bottle' is it??
and all that they could say is just....
Im sorry..

its like, wtf??
That is notoriously selfish!!

Ok, what I'm really trying to say is,
try and have a slow talk.. make decisions wisely,
don't rush into things, what are the consequenses
after the decisions had been made, and how is it
gonna affect the other party and finally,
give and take!...

If not, why be in the picture in the first place??

Know your decisions well.. SERIOUSLY...
You don't wanna know what others are gonna think of you after it.

METAL STRONG!

2008-10-27T20:01:00.000-07:00

This past few weeks have been so busy...
Every day was a tiring day,.. but.. i still do stay up late at night..heheh!
this is the only time i have for myself!.. hoho..
Its my time to chill, and get updates from the people i know. sorta like, relaxing, and socializing in the mind way.. haha.. ChillAX!
every day is a hectic day, and i have to do project works from morning till the evening. Sometimes even till nine at night!!.. makes my head veryy tireedd.. so, this is what i do to refresh the mind and not thinking about projects for a while.
ow ya,.. spoke to Aza the other day, and she's officially in a fraternity called Phi Tetta Kappa. Congrats yo!.. Keep It Up!
anyways,.. i have to bare with this course i am takin and i hope that i'll survive! i wanna graduate fastt!!
woo hoo... haha.
well,.. need to be strong!. everybody needs to be strong!..

The Past

2008-10-20T18:44:00.000-07:00

The Past always seems to haunt us...
but sometimes, it is good to remember the past.
It makes us what we are now.

Its not that the present is bad or anything, its just that the past,
sometimes are better than the present.

remember when we say,
'owh, i wish i was still in high school',
or, 'owh, i wish i was still a kid, so free and careless'..

the older we grow, the more responsibilities stacks on our shoulder...
but, the past helps us to handle the responsibilities that we have now.
through experience of course...
makes us wiser and stronger....

see guys,
the past is actually very good.
but dont think about it too much though,
we do have to move forward..

listen to the music..
free your mind..
and give it a thought..

peace.

Hate how much...

2008-10-08T04:47:00.000-07:00

Hmm..
So much to do, so little time.
So much to think, no time to think..
So much to love, so little heart space..

These are the things that keeps me wondering.
Of how, what, where and when its gonna be settled.
What is it?, its up to you to think. Of whats the most
complicated things on earth.
Where?, anywhere and everywhere. It comes and goes.
When?. Anytime, everyday, every minute, and every heart beat.

Ive rejected, and have been rejected.
In so many ways..
whether its life related, educational related,
future related, anything..

I haven't found a solution to any of these yet.
I need some inspiration to pull myself together.
I'm still waiting. And I will wait, even if it'll make me suffer.
For the one thing that will solve all my quizzes and puzzles.

So, come on 'inspiration'.
Come and complete the pieces my puzzles that is called 'my life'.
to make it better, stronger, and beautiful..

Or maybe, i can just dream.
dream of something that is impossible nor possible.
Yes, I am a dreamer..
but do mind..
For great men used to be great dreamers.

It is sometimes hard to cross a hanging bridge,
I'll have to try something new, or make that change.
But once i do, i realized,
that things are usually never as bad as i imagined it to be.

Feel the music..
Makes the heart calm..

uHHH!!

2008-10-05T18:02:00.000-07:00

I wanna write,.. just felt that i wanna write something.
but im too tired to write...
I wanna go to bed, i feel sleepy.
but i don't feel like sleeping yet..
I wanna prepare for my interview tomorrow, but im too sleepy to do it.
and i don't feel like doing it now..

so im gonna eat...haha
its 2 in the morning!..
im yawning while looking at my kebab..

serabut...

LONDONER..hah!

2008-09-21T18:58:00.000-07:00

Im back!..

Im now in London and i have settled down in my Uni.

The Uni is awesome and i am seriously glad that i studied here. Im staying in the On-campus accommodation but sadly the room that im staying in is quite small!!.. arghh.. i tried to change to a bigger room but they won't let me becoz they say that all the first year postgrads have to stay in the drum like halls... so, yeah.. i'll manage..

Today is my fourth day here and wow, i think i can actually go anywhere in London coz in four days, i learned how to use the simply complicated map of the london UNDERGROUND. haha..

yeah,.. if u look at the map, you'll get confused coz there are so many routes which they call 'lines' on the map and you wouldn't know which is which.. damn im good.. haha.

So many things happened during the four days im in here and dangg it was a good experience!.

On the first day, i arrived about 5a.m. at the airport and theres no one there!. The thing is, the university staff was supposed to pick me up at that time, but i don't know, its 5 am, so i guessed that they aren't here yet. so i waited. but then, i was gettin abit nervous so i called the uni's rep and asked what time are they coming to pick me up. He told me that theyre running a bit late!.. yeah, i guess its because of the traffic and it was on wednesday morning.

Around 7.30, i managed to get hold of the student ambassadors who were supposed to be at the airport and pick up the students who are arriving on that day.

The journey from the airport is just about half an hour, and when i arrived at the uni, we have to go straight to the residential services and apply for accommodation.

So now, i have settled down and well am actually preparing myself for next week coz, class is starting next week,. but still, i am not sure about my schedule, its not out yet... bloody ell!!..

But i know a bit of it from my schools briefing this morning and it was soo boring. Ow yeah, today i finally established an account with HSBC. Now im just waitin for my debit card.. WOOHOO... plus im also waiting for my credit card from the Malaysian HSBC. I will get it from Uncle Tajri(my dad's friend in London) coz i told the bank to courier it to his house where it is much safer and in good hands. If i had told them to send it to my flat, who knows what will happen to the card..

soo yeah...!!! WOOOHOOOoo again!!... now i can shop till i erm.....kering i guess?..haha!

One more thingy, ..my dad asked me to come home for raya, but then, i said i dont know yet coz i dont really know how my schedule is,.. yeah.. i'll just wait and see.. if i can, i'll just come back, if not.. i'll be fine,.

anyways, i'm going off now. tomorrow is gonna be a long day.. i have lectures from 9.30 till 4..

huhu....yeah,.. gotta wake up early tomorrow.. hmm..

and, i need to call someone jap.. :)

alriteyh!...later mates! cheers! <---poyo..haha.

ONE of The Days..

2008-09-13T10:56:00.000-07:00

Today is ONE OF THE DAYS that i rasa the day is worth it.haha, i woke up early!.. haha finally!... and today me and my family went to take our family photo at the shop. Well, my mum wanted to do it coz, i wont be around for raya.. haha, i know shes gonna miss me,.. well i think this time, my parents betul2 sorta 'into' me a bit.. ngahaha.. ha well, parents,.. parents mana tak sayang anak. hmm...

Anyways, after the photo shoot, we went home and do some photoshooting ourselves.. haha... just for memories..

I was a bit" excited bout going to the UK. its gonna be a new experience for me living there all by myself. Mann,.. i just love the challenge.. Im gonna explore new places, meet new friends, living in a different kind of environment and all sorts of stuff.. but i gotta admit, i am a bit nervous going there.. ShAiTeee!!... well, more nervous than excited!! haha.. maybe its becoz of the same reasons,.. new place, new friends, new environment.. hmm.. tulasall!!...

im gonna be alrite.. i think..:).

Today again, i blanja my family some Nasi Padang for berbuka,.. haha, guess its gonna be the last belanja before i fly off.. hmm.. yeah.. we had, kuah lemak tunjang and kuah lemak ayam, some 'dendeng', ayam pop, and sambal cili hijau.. wooo.. it was good... i bought it at Sari Ratu Restaurant.. (ni promote nih..haha)..

My dad is kinda acting a bit weird today, my mum said, dia risau i nak makan apa kat sana.. haha,.. so he went to KLCC to get me some kitchen utilities and utencils.. lemme see... he got me a frying pan, a kettle, some beras, sponges, a mini grinder, some fork and spoons, and apa ntah lagi..hmm.....

While my dad went to KLCC with my mom, i went to play badminton with my little bros at ampang and mannnnn were they tired after that... haha.. Aiee(the third bro) said he lost about 600 grams after that.. haha...Well, they merengek nak main badminton since last week, so i was thinkin, i should go and play today coz im leaving soon and theres not much time left after today.. im gonna miss them.... they are my babies.. 'Lepas ni along tak hantar adik ngan Aiee pegi skolah dah pagi pagi tau..................';)

they even asked me, "nanti along pegi sana, lepas tu along balik bila? bila nak main badminton lagi?".... and "nanti along pegi london, sapa nak bawak adik tengok wayang?"........................

I don't know what to answer........

Today pun is one of the days that i kinda miss somebody jugak, ok lets cut the crap... I miss Aza today,. i dont know why.. ....ha well, i got to speak to her just now,..it was nice talking to her and i feel like i can say just anything.. haha.. somehow, just by listening to her sweet and slow voice makes me.........erm... how should i say this,... soothes me up??..i guess..(i know that youre probably gonna read this, so takpa kan?:)......). Yeah, so, i said what i wanna say...

And now, im already started sorting out my clothes and other stuffs to bring along... i think im gonna bring 2 large suitcase, and 2 hand carry bags,.. yeah.. thats it. i hope. if not im gonna get into trouble at the airport..haha...

anyways, i'll just continue writing some more later coz, i have to rest now coz im pickin my friend up around 4 at pudu. Hes my best friend in Itm, and hes from terengganu. Hes gonna stay over at my house tomorrow just for my buka puasa.. lama tak jumpa..

later.....

LOVEly JULY

2008-09-12T12:49:00.000-07:00

Many lovely things happened in the month of July 2008..
memories.. memories...
it was a memorable month for me..

FALIQ'S ENGAGEMENT

FALIQ'S SUPRISE BIRTHDAY..

MET 'HER'...

BECAME CHAMPION/BUAYA....hehe..

Solange Knowles - I Decided

2008-09-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

ohhhh spoken:I cant hear myself

ooo spoken:can you please turn me up a little bit more

I was a little different

I didn't do what the fast girls do

study my rhythm

you can speed me up when you want to,

oooh They were to cool to run my race

You kept the pace with a smile on ya face

Go head baby(go head baby)

Then I knew he was you(then i knew he was you)

But first you took me around Introduced me to your family and friends

And told them how that once we met that We would never lose

Oh boy

I decided that you are the him for me

Oh boy

Because..... I decided that you are the him for me

Oh my boy

How's it feel to win it

Where ain't no mountains that you can't move

Your mind is like a prism

For god's light to shine through

They were to cool to run my race (Yeah)

You kept the pace with a smile on ya face

Go head baby (go head baby)

Then I knew it was true (Then I knew it was you)

But first you took me around Introduced me to your family and friends

And told them how that once we met that We would never lose (never lose never lose)

Oh boy

I decided that you are the him for me

Oh boy

Because....... I decided (I decided) that you are the him for me (u are the one for me baby)

Oh my boy (OHH Boy)

You were running me running me down (down)

Telling me telling me wait (wait)

Running me down and telling me you were never gonna let go

Is the way you got me (ohh thats the way u got me when u got me baby ohh now u got me baby)

You were running me running me down (running)

Telling me telling me wait (tellin me tellin me wait)

Running me down and telling you were never gonna let go

Is the way you got me Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby Baby,

Dont break my heart

Whoa..Let me take it from you (let me take it from you)

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby (baby)

Cause were one and the closer I get

To you the more fearful I become

Whoa....That would break me in two Honey (that would break me in two honey)

Because..... I decided that you are the him for me

Oh my boy (Yes)

You were running me running me down (running me running me down)

Telling me telling me wait

Running me down and telling you were never gonna let go yeah yeah thats the way u you got me baby that' the way you got me baby

You were running me running me down Telling me telling me wait Running me down and telling you were never gonna let go

Is the way you got me ...

The first time I heard this song, I repeated it over and over again.

It was at someone's myspace,

i called her straight up to say that i really love it.

And i dont know why, i kept smilin when i heard this song...:)

I WANT TO SCREAM BUT I CANT..

2008-09-10T13:46:00.000-07:00

IIiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIIII MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!

fuhhh..............

i can't handle this.....
aarrgghhh...!!!

something to think about.. hmm maybe..

2008-09-10T13:30:00.000-07:00

HOW GUYS FLIRT:

1. HE STARES AT YOU ALOT.
2. HE HITS YOU ALOT. (JUST PLAY HITTING )
3. HE USES THE FIRST THING THAT POPS INTO HIS HEAD TO START A CONVERSTAION WITH YOU
4. HE YELLED, "HI!", TO YOUR MUM THAT DAY SHE PICKED YOU UP FROM SCHOOL.
5. HE BLEW OFF HIS BUDS TO GO SEE "BROWN SUGAR" WITH YOU CUZ YOU COULDN'T GET ANOTHER GIRL PAL TO GO AND DIDN'T WANT TO GO ALONE.
6. HE TRIES TO MAKE YOU LAUGH ANYWAY EVEN IF HE GETS HURT IN THE PROCESS
7. HIS VOICE GETS SOFTER WHEN EVER YOU TWO TALK.
8. YOU HUNG UP ON HIM. HE CALLED YOU BACK.
9. YOU WERE INVITED BY HIM TO A GROUP OUTING.
10. HE CALLED YOU TO TALK ABOUT NOTHING AT ALL.
11. HE IMITATES YOUR LAUGH. OK, YOU DO LAUGH PRETTY LOUD. WHICH MAKES YOU LAUGH EVEN HARDER...
12. HE REMEMBERS LITTLE THINGS YOU MENTION IN CASUAL CONVERSATION
13. HE SOMETIMES STARES STRAIGHT INTO YOUR EYES.
14. HE USES EVERY POSSIBLE WAY TO TOUCH YOU (YOUR HAIR, FACE, THIGHS, KNEES,ECT.)

HOW GIRLS FLIRT:

1.SHE CALLS YOU BY YOUR FULL NAME NOT JUST A NICK NAME.
2. SHE HITS YOU SOFTLY ON THE ARM AND LAUGHS WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHING FUNNY.
3. SHE FLIPS HER HAIR WHEN SHE'S TALKING TO YOU.
4. SHE TOUCHES YOUR ARM WHEN SHE TALKS TO YOU.
5. SHE SAYS, "NO, I'M NOT TELLING YOU WHO I LIKE!" WITH A BIG SMILE ON HER FACE.
6. SHE ASKS YOU WHO YOU LIKE OR WHO YOU WOULD GO OUT WITH SEEMINGLY INTERESTED.
7. WHEN YOU GO TO THE MOVIES WITH A BUNCH OF YOUR FRIENDS AND SHE IS ALMOST ALWAYS NEXT TO YOU.
8. SHE CRITICIZES YOU ON A GIRL YOU LIKE.
9. YOU CATCH HER STARING AT YOU.
10. SHE PLAYS WITH YOUR HAIR OR TRIES TO PUT MAKE UP ON YOU.
11. HER FRIENDS OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL AND IN SCHOOL KNOW ABOUT YOU,
AND SAYSbSHE TALKS ABOUT YOU A LOT.
12. SHE KNOWS YOUR PHONE NUMBER AND ADDRESS. ( STALKER MUCH? )
13. SHE WILL TRY AND TALK, AND SPEND TIME WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

My Sekolah in London

2008-09-10T09:49:00.000-07:00

HEY again,..

here are some pics of where im gonna be in london.. UEL..

The campus is designed with a high performance low energy fresh air delivery system, allowing windows to be shut to keep out the noise from the City Airport opposite. This highly flexible campus is focused on a pedestrian square facing south onto the Dock. Its 384 student rooms are gathered in brightly painted paired drums along the dockside in front of the main academic buildings. Its iconic forms have been successful in promoting both the University and regeneration for the whole area. - EDWARD CULLINAN ARCHITECTS -DESIGNER OF UEL DOCKLANDS CAMPUS

THE UEL STUDENTS BAR

UEL ENTRANCE

UEL STUDENTS LIBRARY

LIBRARY AGAIN

MAIN CONCOURSE

VIEW FROM THE DOCKSIDE AND PART OF THE LONDON CITY AIRPORT

VIEW FROM ABOVE

VIEW OF THE HALLS OF RESIDENCE

HALLS OF RESIDENCE

HALLS OF RESIDENCE AGAIN

SO many Things to do, So little Time..

2008-09-10T01:03:00.000-07:00

Hi, I still have so many things to do before i fly off..

As for today, i have to complete the work for my dad which is actually due yesterday..haha. I was busy yesterday, i went out to send my car in the morning, came home around 12, had a nap.. i was damn tired, didnt sleep the whole night. and around 4, i went back to Shah Alam to pick up my car with Faliq. Faliq went back straight after that. i stayed in Shah Alam to meet my friends for buka puasa.

Anyways, yeah i have to complete the work fast coz today im goin for buka puasa at Centro, KLCentral with Faliq, Azhar, Aizmin, Haziq, Keemz and.. owh, thats it. haha.. well the place is kinda a good deal coz you pay 30 ringgit, and all you can eat.. said Faliq. so, ok.

back to today's agenda. after buka puasa, i might be goin for lepak with friends and also, my cousin whom i just knew.. haha. she's from my mums side. well the story is, shes actually my classmate in UiTM for 2 years coz she got transferred from UiTM Perak to Shah Alam. And we actually found out we're like cousins just last month. HAHA.....Anyways, shes been askin me to go for lepak for so many times, and i said ok today coz i'll be very busy the other days. she said that she wont be able to lepak anymore on the weekends coz she'll be at her parents in penang and she said shes workin by next week. so today it is..

well...thats it then.. uh oh, i nearly forgot, i need to upload some pics from yesterday's buka puasa with my UiTM classmates.. or, maybe i'll just do it later..

ha well, i'll post some here.. haha..

I can't sleep!!!!!

2008-09-08T16:03:00.000-07:00

why cant i sleep!!! argghhh!! this is not helping...!!

ha well.. lemme check..

-i slept around 8pm to 10 pm yesterday, so i'm really not that sleepy..

-i played the flight simulator game and it can last for hours.

-watched youtube and was soo exited to see new cars on the line.. and also some other stuffs..

-the stupid dog in front of my house just cant stop barking since 10pm... ishh aku sepak kang!!

-the dog finally stopped barking at 4.45am and its already time for sahur!!

-i ate sahur, had 3-4 sticks of cigarette and drank 2 mugs of coffee.. haha.. lama tak minum coffee!!! soo kempunan!!

-had a massive headache since i woke up at 10pm. until now..

-i have to get ready by 7.30 coz i have to send my brothers to school..

-and i have to go and send my car for service at shah alam. so i have to mandi early..

sooo.. thats it!!....

now i know why i can't sleep..

still, i cant sleep yet. its 7.12 a.m. and i gotta mandiii....

lator lator...

wa sasau beb!!!...

i want one!!

2008-09-08T03:52:00.001-07:00

I LOVE CARS. MY CAR IS MY GIRLFRIEND.. when i dont have any.haha..

Lapaarrr.. Hauusss!!! HEEllllppppp!!!

2008-09-07T02:44:00.001-07:00

OMG, im like so thirsty right now i can drink a whole bucket of water.. uhh!!
i regreted playing badminton just now..shittos moralles!!

Im fasting today. yeah, today is day 7 and we have like another 23 days to go for ramadhan.
and then its Raya time!!!... but then, i'll be far away from my family.. all alone..
Its okay, i've gotta do what i've gotta do.. and what i'm doing is not just for me, but also for my beloved family. especially my parents who gives hope, dedication, and moral support to me for all these years.. well of course there are arguments, but its just such a small matter..

Anyways, i've gotta go now coz i promised azhar that im pickin him up for pasar juadah.
shaite, Its nearly 6, .. gotta go..

later...

LOVE??

2008-09-06T02:00:00.000-07:00

Today, im gonna write about L.O.V.E., what is love??

-Love is patient and kind, Love is not jealous, conceited, proud or boastful, it is not arrogant, selfish, irritable or rude. Love does not keep a record of wrongs. Love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth, Love never gives up, and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal.'' - 1-corinthians 13 4

-"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."- Mother Theresa"

-The less you open your heart to others, the more your heart suffers."- Deepak Chopra

-"Can miles truly separate us from friends If you want to be with Rae, aren't you already there"- Richard Bach from "There' No Such Place As Far Away

-When I first saw you I was afraid to talk to you, when i first talked to you I was afraid to like you, when I liked you I was afraid to love you, now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you -Unknown.

LOVE HURTS - INCUBUS

Tonight we drink to youth,
And holding fast the truth,
Don't want to lose what I had as a boy,
My heart still has a beat,
But love is now a feat,
As common as a cold day in L.A.

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing
Love hurts,

But sometimes it's a good hurt,
And it feels like I'm alive,
Love sings,

When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me '
cause without love I won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
Stand naked and accused
Should I surface, this one-man submarine?
I only want the truth!
So tonight we drink to youth!
I'll never lose what I had as a boy
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?
Love hurts....

The lyrics are only part of the song. The other half are just repeats..

ERMM.....The thing is...
Lately, im trying to get over the feelings.. but guess what, I just cant...
I dont know why... Only 2 things that can really help me overcome this feeling..
Get back together, or find someone new.. fast!. Where, the get back together part might seem
a nonsense or i can just dream of it. She's not into me anymore. Not even a bit.
If i ever find someone new fast, it would be so unfair to her as i might probably take her as a rebound. Plus, my heart is still with my HER.. so, not gonna happen..
Owh man.....!!!!!
I hate this part of my life..

If only things were back to normal.. If only there were no complications,..
If only she'd love me fully hearted, If only i didn't be soo brave and asked her to be my lover,..haha.. i still remember this. I came to the house and sorta give her some hint2 pressies. I really was nervous and I can't think of anything. my brain just isn't working when i'm in front of her.
My face was purple! yeahh.. i was that nervous.. never have i felt like that before in my entire life!!.. not even when i proposed my ex-s.... It was just out of this world!!!.. for me at least..
I thought i found my SOUL...

But....., things doesn't always go as we planned it. So, here i am, still gettin over it.. Day 9..

till then....
later...

06 september 2008

2008-09-05T14:34:00.000-07:00

Hey hey hey...

This is my first time bloggin...

Well, i decided to start blogging because i needed to express what my feelings are,

coz as for me, i dont really have anyone to talk to. not to say that im that lonely, its just that

i dont really tell people my true feelings or what im actually thinking. I just cant!. The last person whom i actually started talkin to actually left me coz she said that were not that connected to each other.

Ha well, lets skip that part for the moment and continue bout the topic. So yeah, and now i started bloggin. Maybe after this , i can review all my posts and discover what type of person i really am. Everybodys still tryin to search and discover themselves and who they truly are.

For them who truly found themselves, congratulations. As for me, i'm still searching...

Thats it for my first post and i'm already lookin forward to writing the second one. cant wait..

but then, now is not a suitable time. I need to sleep... bye..

Yours truly..